ALMOST A YEAR

A year ago all I could hear was "I wish that airplanes in the night sky could be like shooting stars, cause I could use a wish right now"... As much as "my so called life sucked".. The wish I had was granted... I gave my kids their mom back. They are my life and light that has kept me going all year. To my 2 amazing kids: thank you for giving me the life I needed. Jordan you are growing up too fast. To hear this everyday, "mommy you are beautiful", it puts a smile on my face. Sophia, you are like your brother.. "mommy you are the best." Both of you have been my "cheerleaders" and my biggests fan over this past year..Both of you have raised me up from what I call "my death".
To My family has been the biggest Rock and support over the year of what I call "craziness"... I gave my parents their daughter back. And gave my brothers their sister back. My family has stood by my side and helped me through the toughest time of my life. Thank you staying with me.
As For many close friends that have been there just to "talk" and "listen".. I can't say Thank you for letting me vent out. All the text messages and phone calls saying "I'm here for you Rach.. Keep your head on straight.. Keep going"...
As for Steve thank you for letting me experience what I had too. I wouldn't have learned so much about myself, if it wasn't for you. Thank you for being there for me. You were there in the darkest days of my life. Thank you for standing by myside and pushing me. I'm grateful for you for being a my other half. And for also saying "you can do this, I'm so proud of you"... Yes I do listen to what you say to me.. :-)
I'm filled with gratitude after this year.. I can't say thank you enough for everyone helping me giving me words of encouragement.. Im such a better person because I know all of you.. My life wouldn't be where I am today with each of my close friends helping me through. I can't express to all of you where I was in life.. Or how it made me feel. I know that life is a dream now. I was expressing myself through each one of you. It wasn't just one person or one thing. It was my dream that I call my reality. When you give up and just say I'm gonna let the universe handle this.. This is when you just say "ok it's gonna be all worth it someday." So in this battle I chose what is my better life. And just let the vibes and good things happen... Thank you everyone for affecting my life the way you did because again with out you I wouldn't be who I am today..

SuMmEr TiMe

This summer has been crazier then ever! I am enjoying it more then ever. Enjoying life in the fast lane. My life never stops! Headed to Arizona for a family reunion!

LIFE BACK IN THE CITY OF THE SALT

IM BACK!!!!! In the City of Salt! Wasn't too happy when I first arrived here. I was freezing cold. It was raining and 30 degrees when I stepped off the plane. Then it SNOWS! I almost forgot what Snow looked like. I've enjoyed being back in the City of Salt. It finally has warmed up. And Im happy to be here.

truck campin..

We went camping over the weekend up to north shore. We are not suppose to camp up there. But luckily we went late enough that we weren't gonna get asked to leave. Steve's son, fell asleep on the way up. And just stayed asleep the whole night. We had brought our futon mattress, and slept on that in the back of the truck. It was perfect. The waves were rolling in, and the stars were out.
Steve fell asleep eventually, and I fell asleep and woke up in the middle of the night and just looked up and listened to the waves. I sat there watched shooting stars for 2 hours. It was something that I will never forget. Although it was freezing. It was the most perfect setting.. ever..
We woke up to the waves and the sunrising. It was just a site that I will never forget.

what a trip

what a trip this weekend... fireworks on friday night, sat went to the pineapple maze or known as the dole plantation, and went to the beach/pool in waikiki, and then then sunday.. went to the beach in kailua.. wow.. what a crazy wild weekend.. but in all.. i need to figure out somethings.. and hopefully its for the best for me.. life is divine chaos.. embrace it, enjoy it, and live it.

trying to decide....

what to do.. go back to utah for awhile.. or stay in hawaii.....let's vote..